One of my clients is writing her memoir and shared a chapter with me.  I was truly touched when I read it;  so much so that I  wanted to post it on my blog.  I thought if it touched me so deeply, maybe it would touch you too.   

 

Memoirs of a women after God’s heart:

Everything was crystal clear.  My career was on track, I knew what I wanted to do with my life and I knew God’s purpose for my life.  For much of my life my dream was to become a director, president or vice president of someone’s company.  I longed for the five meeting days, long hours and late nights at the office.  As I progressed in my career and aged, I decided I wanted to have my own company and/or a non-profit.  Again, along with that would come long hours and late nights.  For as long as I remember I have always lived my life five years ahead.  I never saw where I was now my only concern was where I was going or what I could be until one day someone asked me “what do you see when you look in the mirror?

 

The mirror is a reflection of who you are not just how you look physically, but the mirror allows you to look deep into your soul and spirit and discover what your strengths, your fears and the your weaknesses.  That day in the mirror I saw a future size 6, successful, powerful woman, who spent her days walking with God. In the same mirror, I saw a young lonely, chubby girl longing for acceptance, and scared of rejection.  But what I did not see is who I was at the moment.  I did not see all the good that others saw.  I did not see success or beauty. It seemed as if there was a gap between the past and the future, there was no present.  For many years, I professed knowing and walking with God, but that day I realized that you cannot walk with God if you are absent from the present.  In the chapter of Matthew, Jesus said “Don’t worry about tomorrow because tomorrow is not promised to you”.

 

That is the question that changed my life and at that point I became a woman after God’s heart.